A week in the life, pt 2

maandag

Did not want to wake up today, so I turned off my alarm at 6 and then slept until almost 9. Guess I needed that sleep!

Also lost an earring in the bed. This happens more often than you would think. So instead I am wearing one of my dangly witchy pairs, because the missing earring remains elusive.

Guess it wanted to sleep in more, too. 😂

Brain's feeling a little squirrely today. Realized I have again failed to keep up on my ADHD medications. 😅

And yes, I did indeed fall asleep last night with laundry in the washer.

ADHD meds kicked in around 4pm and I got the energy to focus on several things to knock them out for work. Except...I really shouldn't be working so late, my schedule has me off at 3:30! 😆

dinsdag

Contrast to yesterday, I woke up mostly on time this morning even though I went to bed much later than expected.

Chatted with the Den Haag gemeente today to find out why I haven't received my BSN (citizen number) yet. I have 5 days left of one of my medications that helps with anxiety, and I can't really get a doctor until I have the BSN. 🫪 They put in a ticket for me to be contacted back, chat doesn't have the access to the information I need.

There is construction nearby and it's not only so loud but now I can smell the work in my office and it's giving me a headache.

....think I'll call it a day here.

woensdag

Last night, I didn't fall asleep until 3am and had the worst fucking quality sleep I've had for weeks. My brain just would not shut up.

Didn't take the aforementioned nightly med that acts as a sedative because of the low supply I have. Totally the likely culprit, but I also ate a weed brownie that could have made my brain a bit more active.

So I took today off work. It was massively needed.

During my "brain pls stfu" overthinking, I realized that as the department I work on at the foundation expands and I hand things off, I'm starting to feel a bit ....obsolete? Maybe it's just the hormones of the monthly variety, but imposter syndrome is strong with me this week. I don't feel included in certain things anymore, and people are being hired to take on more of the tedious things that I have historically owned.

I'm supposed to be included more in strategy, but feel like I get told nothing in that area right now. And all week I've felt like I've just done everything wrong.

I thought moving here would make this a bit easier but....it hasn't exactly.

Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe I just need an actual vacation.

One thing I get to do this week, though, is head back to Enschede to pick up the keys to the house. 🤩

donderdag

Last night's sleep was significantly better, but I also did end up taking the medication I need to. We'll see tonight if I struggle with sleep again because I don't plan on taking the medication again to preserve stock.

Still feeling pretty lost today. Brain fog is strong, keeping on task is difficult. Maybe I should have just stayed in bed today. But I'm glad I didn't. Had some important conversations today.

vrijdag

Last night's sleep wasn't so bad! Did take me a little longer to fall asleep but nothing like Tuesday night. Even woke up when I needed to.

Low stress day - heading to Enschede to pick up the keys to our new home. Gonna take video of the place during the walkthrough and then take photos to send off to everyone.

The management company took the listing down the day we signed the lease so we weren't able to show it off to family! 😅

Met the actual owner of the home and learned that he didn't speak English but also his daughter should be inheriting the home after we're done with it. She'll be our main contact for any needs around the house.

Time to start ordering what we need!

zaterdag

I woke up at 11am. wtf is wrong with my sleep schedule right now. Absolutely inconsistent with when I'm taking my meds, too, so it's gotta be stress levels.

Did straight up fuck all today except play Overwatch and I'm happy with that. Started playing Support on my husband's account just to help him finish the battle pass and get all the bonuses that come with that. 😆

zondag

Another quite chill day of doing nothing. I started some more laundry to make sure everything is ready for when we leave next weekend.

Holy shit we move next weekend!

Did I want to move twice in a year? Absolutely not. But everything is almost finished with this transition.

Having a company help me get my utilities set up that the management company partners with. This will be a relief, because navigating the new systems here while also getting Rhys set up for school is gonna be a stressful event.

Phone tried to say "arson event" there and honestly yeah. 😂

They're a free service which makes things even better. Should be able to get everything set up without my BSN.

... which I still don't have and the gemeente can't give me a time frame. 🙃

This next week I'll be scheduling our registeration with the Enschede gemeente. Maybe everything will get properly forwarded. 😅